Much learned, but still so much more…

My poor neglected blog!  I’m back!  Been a while.  But God has been working.   So much has happened in just the first half of the year.  He DID say He was going to do a “new thing.”  And He is.  Many times has He had to remind me of His promise He gave me at the beginning of the year, but He is teaching me so much about His faithfulness and love.  And I love Him more and more.

Truly my soul waiteth upon God: from Him cometh my salvation. He only is my rock and my salvation; He is my defense; I shall not be greatly moved.  My soul, wait thou only upon God; for my expectation is from Him. He only is my rock and my salvation: He is my defense; I shall not be moved.  In God is my salvation and my glory: the rock of my strength, and my refuge, is in God.  Trust in Him at all times; ye people, pour out your heart before Him: God is a refuge for us.  Selah.  Psalm 62:1-2,5-8

I believe God has been teaching me many things in this passage these past few months and with these present trials.  He has been teaching me to accept His promises by faith, believing that I have them even when I do not yet see it with my eyes.

For we are saved by hope: but hope that is seen is not hope: for what a man seeth, why doth he yet hope for?  But if we hope for that we see not, then do we with patience wait for it.  Romans 8:24,25

That is faith.  Also He has been teaching me how to be still, and wait patiently, and silently for Him to move according to His will and in His timing.  I am learning how to trust His timing.  He is teaching me that I can retain the joy He gave me even through hard times by resting in the fact that “all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.”  (Rom. 8:28)

He is teaching me I can avoid disappointment and discouragement by placing my expectation in HIM ALONE.  Ultimately He is in control of everything right?  So why would I place too much faith or expectation in the abilities or willingness of certain people, or potential employers (yes, we’re still unemployed), or the economy, or circumstances.  All these things are fallible and will fail at some point.  But when I place my faith/expectation in God, He NEVER fails, and in His faithfulness He will NEVER disappoint me.

What hard, hard lessons they have been.  But a blessing nonetheless.  In fact, the last 7 years have been probably the hardest of my life, but by far the best.  I would not trade them for anything.  We have been stripped of so much (by God’s mercy) and given what is far better (by God’s grace).  Praise Him.

My oldest son Gavin is with a group of boys this week in a church camp in Eufaula.  He’s having a good time.  I am praying that the Lord will speak to his heart while he is there.  He is already a wise little boy, surprisingly so at times.  I am often surprised not at what he knows, but at what he UNDERSTANDS.  He is 10 and already wants to serve the Lord in some way.  I praise the Lord for that.

Lord, You are an excellent teacher!  Wise and loving.  Merciful and forgiving.  Your judgments are fair and just.  Your word is true.  Be glorified in me.   All I am and all I have belongs to You.  Be glorified in my husband.  Be glorified in my children.  Take us and conform us to the image of Your Son and use us for Your kingdom.  Bear MUCH fruit through us.   Amen.

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